100% sure I’ve posted this before and 200% fine with it

"You are what you believe yourself to be."

Paulo Coelho, The Witch of Portobello (via observando)


untitled by PRISCILLA W. on Flickr.

"For a star to be born, there is one thing that must happen: a gaseous nebula must collapse.

So collapse.
This is not your destruction.

This is your birth."

n.t. (via jongisms)

To the girl who heaven stole too soon

Guilty. As illogical as it is, that is how I would describe this feeling: guilty. Guilty and stunned. I was not there when a rogue angel tore you from a life you’d only just begun. As they carried you through that too-dark night into the heavens 1000 hearts shattered. Mine should not be among them. Mine has no right to be among them. And yet, it is. 

I feel guilty because I have only one memory with you. One memory more than I deserve, but one memory all the same. You were laughing at the absurdity of my coworker’s beard. You’d never met him before, but for someone as outgoing and light-hearted as you that was never a problem. As you two joked I listened, intimidated by your ease and grace, caught up in your wit. There were so many things I could have said - things like “I love that shirt,” “How’s your sister,” “You were incredible in the Nutcracker” - but I didn’t. Instead I stood there laughing along and trying to absorb some of the kindness and exuberance that emanated from your smile. 

I feel guilty because so many people are hurt and lost and reaching for an answer that does not exist, and I am reaching along with them even as they have a 15 year head start. But if you’re looking down at us, watching an entire town struggle to find a way to be okay again, never feel guilty. Feel proud of the impact you made. Feel honored that you were able to spread so much warmth in so short a time. Feel blessed that your infinite talent made this school, town, and world a better placed. Feel all of this and more because you more than anyone deserve to. 

Know that you were loved and know that you will be missed. Rest in peace


"I have a special needs brother who just moved out of the house today. It’s the first time I’ve really been alone. And to be honest, I can’t say whether I’m sad or relieved."

I know this guy and he’s really cool